What an unexpected joy it has been to visit the churches of Santa Cruz; to peak in on their congregations and taste the flavors of each community. It has been a long time since I have payed a visit to so many different houses of worship. My first year of college, I flitted around the worshipping communities of Seattle with other eager freshman. For the next 3 years, Bethany Presbyterian was my dwelling place, a community I look forward to returning to in the coming year. For the present season however, I am content in my wandering and searching…it speaks to the state of my heart.
Some places I have visited feel more like home to than others. It is good to recognize what words, practices, songs and sacraments cause me to linger longer. Some communities and services are harder for me to engage, and yet there is something rousing about entering worship and not feeling immediately comfortable. Walking with Jesus is often uncomfortable, I’m realizing. In these places, my pride is broken down and I am reminded that I am not God. I remember that God does not need my approval to work and move in a place.
In a year of much wandering and wondering, visiting these differing communities has brought peace to my heart. With each week, I can feel myself moving slowly from despair to delight in my spiritual peregrination. Last week, among a congregation that expressed an “extravagant welcome to people from all walks of life,” we were led in worship by local Jazz musicians. I was refreshed and enlivened by the sounds that danced around the room. May I just express that more churches should incorporate Jazz? It is a wonderful expression of worship. This is the prayer we offered at communion, one that I’ll tuck away in the pages of my journal and I leave you with this. May we continue to find the peace and courage to journey onward.
A Prayer in the Spirit of Jesus
from the Maori People of the South Pacific
“Earth-maker, life-giver, pain bearer,
Source of all that is and all that shall be,
Father and Mother of us all,
Loving God in whom is heaven:
May the hallowing of your name echo through the universe.
May your heavenly will be done
by all creatures great and small!
And may your commonwealth of peace and freedom
sustain our hope and come on earth!
With the bread we need this day, feed us.
For the hurt we inflict on one another, forgive us.
Through times of temptation, strengthen us.
From trials too great to endure, spare us.
From the grip of all that is evil, free us.
For you reign in the glory of the power that is love.”
Amen
Photo credit: Church of Rodel, Outer Hebrides. Jim Richardson.